u jin

2010-01-30T21:00:00.004+08:00

treated the family to sakura buffet at PS. but i wanna lose weight. =( what an irony.

anyway, amid all those mad feastings, i saw 2 so-called models having a photoshoot outside.

mum " why need so many photographers to take?? "

me " cos there are a lot of perverted ones around. just look at their faces....saliva dripping already lor "

andrew " wahh...their pose hug here hug there...the theme is lesbianism ah?? "

hahaha...... they look shitty by the way.

Paul came back to branch a day before flying off to his honeymoon.

paul " how!! im still a virgin! "

me " what the fuck do you do over the weekends?!?! "

paul " dunno leh...shift her stuffs over to our new place then at night watch dvd. but when sleeping, i tried to initiate "

me " hahahaha!! then how how how??? "

paul " she says got tension "

me " huh?!?! what tension?!?!?!!?! "

yes..yes...anyway, congratulations to Paul and Christopher on their marriage! opps! no..no..no..no....hahahaa.... i meant Paul & Shirley*****Christopher & Meifang. hahahahaaaa. Blissful love forever.

tsk tsk tsk. sleeping during meetings. haha

headed over to singlee mummy place after paul's wedding to see the cute little tien ya baby.

me, yong guan, felix, joelle, fydia, amy...last but not least.....chee wee. hahaha.

our business manager will be leaving us. what the fuck! holland village will definately miss his presence dearly. i have grown up alot learning from him in every aspect that is needed to do well in this industry. the morning meetings, the daily debriefs, the late nights discussions, the SMSes etc etc. utmost respect for him.

a great manager, a great guy. all the best.

2010-01-16T17:43:00.005+08:00

simply need a channel to unleash all the stress. anyone kind enough to help? i guess humans aint that helpful by nature. doesnt matter. i'll better rely on myself.
anyway, while the holland peeps are having meetings, i prefer to snap pictures. why not?

hate meetings.
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hate meetings.

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HATE MEETINGS!

again....

oh...what the fuck...

cam whore.

investment seminar.

they said i look like a doctor. hahaha.

2010-01-11T22:26:00.006+08:00

scorecard briefing where everyone gotta wear red..and preferrably..THE LIVERPOOL JERSEY! Major turnoff! Why does Standard Chartered Bank sponsor Liverpool?? Simply because the CEO's a liverpool's fan.........

But......

the renegades of Standard Chartered Holland Village in MAN UTD COLOURS!! ROARSSS!

congrats to our dear yong guan for being the top business manager!! UTTER RESPECT! thanks for the morning breakfast and lunch but stop wanting to collect $20 from me! haha.

Paul bought these for George. Haha! so true....

2010-01-04T18:01:00.004+08:00

dinner with miss tong at seoul garden. when was the last time i stepped into seoul garden? 2 years ago? i guess the standards have completely degenerated to the state of.......nevermind. dun wanna get sued. blahhh. we met up with amy after dinner for some drinks.

loves the coo-ing, the cuddles, the tight hugs, the smell, the everything. u jin loves loves loves everything.

u jin loves this =)

since i have nothing better to do, might as well catch some movies. =)

The Marine 2, a typical testorene kinda show with all the boom, boom, bamm, bamm and where the good guy never NEVER gets killed no matter having 100 baddies shooting at him with AK-47s. hahahaha....well, im just this typical testorene that loves this kinda typical testorene show! haha! *proudly beams*

By the way, i've seen The Marine 1 too!! hahaha!! roarss.

wanted to catch this since a million years ago but just kinda shelved it away always. come to think of it, really not a bad idea to shelve it. hahaha. not particularly impressive. catch it if u have nothing to do. that's my advice.

u jin with his niece. =)

2010-01-03T09:52:00.002+08:00

been on a hiatus for the longest of time. will promise to blog more often this year. not that im particularly busy or what....im just....hmmm......fine fine fine...haha. im busy!
its the time of the year again. NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION. have the ones in 2009 been fufilled yet? not exactly all. probably i'll just carry forward the reminants of 2009 into 2010 coupled with a few more new ones.

i'll probably keep them hush hush for now. they seems to be like birthday wishes where u kinda need to keep them a secret else it'll not come true?

christmas and new year's eve has been spent with lq and amy. unexpectedly yes, for both special occasions. undoubtfully happy to have this 2 good pals with me but a part of me is missing and thinking of her. anyway, happy new year to all.

its a brand new year. let's all hope that i've grown richer, wiser, and smarter. ciao.

2009-10-04T19:01:00.002+08:00

since coming back from chiangmai, have been meeting up alot with miss tong. i like. =)

dinner at yew tee, dinner at tampanies, dinner at yew tee, dinner at tampanies. =)

2009-09-30T19:05:00.005+08:00

Chiangmai Trip

mrt trip from yew tee to changi wasnt exactly fun at 6+am in the morning, hence the shades. it wasnt the "act-cool-even-though-its-still-dark" factor but rather to cover the red and puffy eyes. haha!

diana-u jin-amy

4 hours later.......
Imperial Mae Ping Hotel.

ATV 42km buggy ride, para-gliding whizzes past our minds with excitment when we browse through all these brochures at the hotel lobby. i was thinking " CHIANGMAI WASNT THAT BORING AFTER ALL "

but anyway, i take back those words with a pinch of salt. had dinner at macdonalds. yes. macdonalds..... *ask george why is it so*

toured the umbrella factory. why the fuck do i want to know how umbrellas are made? *ask george why is it so*

toured the jewellery factory. why the fuck do i want to buy diamonds where the average of us only changed $200 worth of baht!! *ask george why is it so*

toured the factory that skinned the life out of elephants, crocodiles, stingrays to make VERY ORBIT leather products. HELLO?! we are singaporeans... we buy LVs, guccis, chanels and pradas. *ask george why is it so*

toured the place that gave us a long educational tour on how honey is being produced in Chiangmai. OH..WTF. *ask george why is it so*

toured the factory that shows us how silk is being made? .......... *ask george why is it so*

toured the factory that directly force-sell us to buy birdnest? ........ *ask george why is it so*

u jin stoning at a corner.

a fruitless trip..haha...fuck.

nevertheless, more pics will be up.

2009-09-17T21:38:00.002+08:00

my blogger has been down for a damn long time so apologies for the no-show. anyway, its the trend of leaving at the moment. sam's heading over to London for 2 years. amy's quiting, christina's quiting and what's else???

she's now in genting and hope she have a great time there and come back fully recharged.

2009-08-30T07:17:00.000+08:00

plain lazy to blog these days. mundane life i suppose. been still patiently waiting. *in vain*? i really don't know. there is no answer to the question be it now or in the future? i really don't know. not trying to be a parasite clinging on to someone but the sweet moments spent between couples just seems so far for me. envious? maybe. but i know for sure what i want, who i want and it will only be her.

2009-08-16T11:17:00.000+08:00

back to the routine of late night runs.
love the surreal, with no one in sight, so that i could think with a puff of ciggie.
does u jin really don't deserve that?

2009-08-09T21:42:00.000+08:00

你說你對我比別人多一些卻又不說是多哪一些
誰來告訴我為什麼是你
我管不了顧不了躲不掉在我的
腦裡心裡夢裡全都是你

2009-08-02T22:54:00.000+08:00

simply a pressure-cooker job not suited for many out there. branches benchmarking against one another, down to individual staffs comparing against one another. someone did told me to be more ruthless and agressive. do i need to stoop to that? maybe i should give it a try.

2009-07-19T22:50:00.002+08:00

im without a doubt, genuinely happy for them. but underneath that laughter, underneath that smile, who doesnt longed for that too?

自私

我一直以为自己是最大方的
其实

我是最自私的

♥
我期待

2009-07-06T22:02:00.003+08:00

back from the dumb fuck army. never failed to use this "dumb-fuck-army-word" every year. as sick as it may sound, come to think of it, i think i actually enjoyed it. not the uniform, not the food, not the smelly toilets, DEFINATELY not the weather but the time spent with this group of buddies i knew since i was 19yrs old. ok. i need to make myself very clear. iam not gay.

reservist doesnt help a single bit when your RSM is a commando cum special ops forces cum ranger piece of psycho nut. can i make myself triplely clear that I AINT AN ARMY PERSONNEL. IAM A FUCKING CIVILIAN. SO STOP ASKING ME TO CUT THE SAME HAIR STYLE AS YOU. bloody crazy. day 1 ritual as usual, after the grouchy haircut sessions, suddenly, we all look the same. smoking buddies includes jielun, eugene, steven, xuanjun. never failed. never failed. time to switch to stupidity mode.

ATEC prep. what the fuck. its gonna be a 3 week in-camp next year. kill me please.

back to work seems so surreal.

what is GDP? all economics students will deem it as Gross Domestic Product.

Sonia?

hmmm... " u mean like toothbrush, shampoo, soap....?? "

" correct mah...domestic is home what...home products mah. "

oh....what the fuck right.

2009-06-21T08:43:00.002+08:00

had some problems with work and some other stuffs recently. no one to talk to, no one to confide in, no one to share with. bottling it up all to myself. my frens msged and called me. probably asking me where am i heading for the weekends. did not answer. i dunno what to tell them or probably i dunno how to tell them that i dun wanna hang out. so i guess the best option is not to reply or pick up the phone.

2009-06-08T23:09:00.002+08:00

been quite a while since i last blogged. getting busier or lazier? or is my life getting mundane? hmmm....
lets start from the point where my memory last. it has indeed been a 2 weeks of unexpected bumming into. met james in the mrt where i didnt even realised till he called for me. let me see. easily been 7 years since the last time i saw him? had a little catch-up. it was definately a great mrt ride for once. was bitching about life 7 years back as compared to the bitched life that we are ardously enduring right now. mine's in standard chartered and his in meryill.

met miss tong in town for dinner and poooof! i met my secondary school mates, eric and lionel in HK cafe. alright....lets do this again? let me see.....easily been 2 years? i guess it is pretty heart warming bumming into old time friends. memories does gushed back into the back of your mind. remincises. isnt it just like the irritating fella that called every few weeks? making her think about it again...and again and again....hmmm.
anyway, miss tong and i met up with jaime and sam. headed down to this club26 at east coast park. very dempsey/rochester like. had some beers. had some chats. i like. :) that particular sunday was so enjoyable. i treasure that alot. :)

how could we forget about the nights at boat quay? guess who i saw? my bud, ah sei. woahh...the rare occasions where u get to see this guy in a pub. well, apparently he just broke up with jane the day before. had a talk with him, drank with him, and no worries bro. you'll do just fine. shall see you real soon in the stupid army crap.what else that is going on in my life? well, the same old repetitive working environment. 3 collegues have since left the branch. the longest serving marcus who will be furthering his studies in australia, followed by the ever-so-hyperly rowdy brandon who will be concentrating on his masters. gonna miss his bloody german/spanish/italian/russian/indian accent. last but not least.

MISS CALLING HIM A BIATCH! hahahahaaaaa...

not forgetting our dear mr escandar whose last day is today. well. all the best! :)

who's next to go?

6th June 2009. Happy Birthday to myself. Did not really plan anything because...hmmmm....i dunno what i wanna do. boat quaying at chamber with miss tong, janel, sam, jaime, eugene and liquan. chris, eva, amy, gin etc were there too. the bday song they sang for me was sweet but the martell sashimi, martellbeer, graveyardbeer is so totally not cool. haha.

did i enjoy my 27th birthday? im happy to have my friends with me but ultimately, its her that can make my day cherry, make me smile and really make me truely happy.

anyway, many thanks to everyone for the prezzies, the birthday wishes. i appreciate all of it. let's just hope that the birthday wishes really do come true.

miss tong made this cheesecake for me. likes. =)

2009-05-20T00:09:00.000+08:00

u jin loves the hugs. :)

2009-05-17T20:38:00.004+08:00

wednesday

dinner at Fosters's with miss tong.

it’s been years since i last had Fosters’s legendary devonshire cream tea. i remember my last visit was at its previous location – Palais Renaissance. yup, it’s indeed been that long. i had my grilled salmon while miss tong had her fish & chips. its was, hmmm.. should i say nothing special to shout about? anyway, the restaurant is warm and cosy, and even has a small al fresco dining area with a garden trellis. At night, it becomes an amorous setting perfect for your beau to blow sweet whispers into your ears. Hahahahaaa........ but.
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except for one horrendously loathing ass.
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the kitchen helper
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kept peeking bloody non-stop at miss tong. felt like gorging his weeny eyes out. ha. ok. im sorry. that is too animalistic. plain disgusting. tarnished the whole ambience of the place.

had some drinks over at coffee club after that. the table beside us.
1 skinny girl
1 plump girl &
1 fat girl

i guess SIZE and noise volume generated go in tandem. that fat chick is really one loud mouthed bitch. hahaha.

thursday
surprise.surprise.surprise.
u jin was in his boxers and hairband where suddenly......

miss tong " im at jurong east already. will reach yew tee soon. "

wahhh! hahaha.. surprise surprise. happy. happy. happy. :)

saturday
met up with gin, cheryl, lq, sam and jaime for the usual chill-outs.
over cokes, wedges, grilled quails and ciggies. hahaha.
the cooing, the cuddlings, the sweet-nothings. envious.

miss tong. does this look familiar to u? :)

2009-05-10T11:49:00.003+08:00

friday
deb's bday party on friday at dblo. miss tong, renting, lq and i headed down. jammed packed to the max. HAPPY 22th BDAY DEB! havent seen you for quite a while! too bad! noelle and clara couldnt make it. very happy for lq because FINALLY he found a job. its about time. hope everything goes well for him. cheers. didnt exactly drink much. just some vodkas and tequilas. yes. gonna start the jin-stay-healthy campaign.

saturday
miss tong and i met up with gin and cheryl at arab street for sisha. smoked, chatted, slacked and SWEATED. i swear the weather is fucking warm. headed over to jielun's place for mahjong after that. miss tong was the overall winner. lol. decided to play just one round so that miss tong and i can spend some time alone. hahaha! we went for breakie at mc cafe where it suddenly RAINS! i means REALLY RAINS! wtf!!

miss tong " yayyy!! rain!! heavier! HEAVIERR!! "

hahaha! she really loveee the rain.

headed over back to my place after the rain has stopped. i swear owen loves her more than michael. lol. but i guess michael simply growls at everyone lah.

sunday
sam's bday at brewerks with the regular buds. me, miss tong, cheryl, gin and lq.....not forgetting the GIRLFRIEND. JAIME. hahaha... i wonder why it evolves down to the guys competing on whose the slowest drinker. the slowest has the unfortunate honour of doing 20 push-ups in public and being videotapped by jaime. oh....wtf! hahaha.. brought over the crazy antics to clarke quay where this time i had the honour of being.........nvm.....blahhh..hahaha.....

anyway, u jin loves forfeits! :) ALOT.

monday
u jin lost.
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sighh.....
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im supposed to be the one introducing products to customers. right?
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but this lady came to sell me her products instead!
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SANITARY PADS FROM SHENZHEN!
with the weird packagings and hmmmm.....china products...i just dun trust them. but huh??? why sell me sanitary pads?? for nose bleeding??

customer " guys can use it too. it can prevent erectile dysfuction. "

WTF!! i think she is crazy!

imagine your wife/girlfriend found out that you actually uses PADS! omg! SICK!

fydia " huh? who dares to use shenzhen ones?? later "there" rot lor "

2009-05-03T22:58:00.006+08:00

branch bbq chalet at downtown east on saturday. all of us headed down after work. we cuddled in bed watching saw 5 before the food arrives. i swear not to watch gory movies with girls anymore! i mean with 6 girls! the ampitude of the screams generated by them can be really quite a earful! hahahaa!

brian the charcoal man.

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miss tong busily tabulating the earnings! lol.

the "2 minutes"

i like. =)

2009-05-03T04:24:00.002+08:00

had buffet dinner with miss tong, christina and brian at swissotel. lol. miss tong and i kept playing scissors, paper, stone and the loser has to eat a piece of fatty meat. hahahahaa!!!! headed over to hog's breathe at chijmes to meet up with cat, elsie and alroy over killkennys and erdingers. they left pretty early and so we headed over to whiskey bar at boat quay to carry on the boozing sessions. hahaha...hmmmm...i thought we made a pact to stop drinking so much?? lol..hmmmm....

2009-04-27T22:51:00.003+08:00

swimming and tanning session with sam at chervons last saturday. i swear the sun is scorching hot. alternating between the pool and the tanning bench. haha. was practically on the phone with miss tong for an hour. that explains the "chao-tar" back of mine. hahaha.

east coast roller blading/cycling with miss tong, jaime, sam, jamie's sis, wesley, avan and his girfriend. what a small world. wesley, who is my poly mate is jamie's sister's bf!!! who could so possibly be sam's future brother-in-law. hahahahaaa!! i love cycling with miss tong cos she gets my heart pumping damn fast!! hahaha. BECAUSE SHE PRACTICALLY LOVES COMING INTO MY LANE!! GROWLS!! HAHAHAhaaaaaa....steamboat dinner at golden mile after that to fill up all the hungry devils.

dinner and white bar with miss tong on the 23th. :)

this saturday was supposed to be vivo roadshow...................BUT..........unforseen circumstances does happen. that's how bitch-ed life is at times. its time to don the green and protect the innocent lives of singapore. wtf.

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ARMY!!!!

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went back for full mobilization....

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priceless.........

white dog cafe for dinner with miss tong, jamie and sam. please do not try the squid ink pasta. cos it sucks. BIG TIME. for $16.90??? pleaseeeeee... u guys should do better. shame shame shame. we caught this movie. i like. :)

hahaha... i love gore. i love blood. and i definately love slashings. muahahahahaaaa!! but it was pretty irritating...NO..VERY IRRITATING... being sandwiched by 2 couples. on my left is sam and jamie busily cuddling away to scary scenes, non scary scenes..WTH! they are cuddling all the bloody way lah.. hahaha. hmmmmmmmm....on my right? another couple who is literally superglued together. IRRITATING TOO.

anyway, night strolling with miss tong at sentosa. :)

2009-04-19T09:00:00.002+08:00

wednesday
met up with miss tong at tampanies for dinner. yes. the place is really flooded with tampa-nians. hahaha. well... dejected/disappointed? 'appointment' has been cruelly striked off. hahahaha. blahhh......sigh.....

friday
waited for miss tong outside her branch. luckily, no mr mufu today. we headed over to chijmes for some drinks. i swear i will boycott. FOREVER BOYCOTT that money churning bloody restaurant. shall not disclose names but charging me for like half a can of coke light for bloody $9 is fucking unacceptable. bloody leachers. miss tong's latte is way cheaper than mine. wtf?!? this aint australia right? where booze is cheaper than mineral water. miss tong and i headed over to liquid kitchen to meet up with sam + mysterious lady and u gin......

mysterious lady.....

hmmm...............

hahaha.............

his new gf.......jaime aka christina ong's friend aka the girl i knew at the fairmount's party. WTFFF!!! hahahaha.... i seriously think sam should give me a damn big angbao for this! *wink* but still, really happy for him. :) envious. haha. we slacked, drank, ate, chatted, goofed around till about 3am. miss tong and i chatted on the phone till about 6+am....hmmmm...it was.....hmmmm..... went to work straight after that. it was literally a " walking zombie " bank for saturday. everybody was like zoned-out. there are the zoukers, the zira-ers and lastly, the sole liquid kitchen-er. hahahaha...

sam and i headed over to chevron for a swim and tan after my work.
extremely touchy couple spotted just 2 meters away from us. there is the smooching, the frenching, the fondling, the head to boobies action....etc....etc....etc.... spare me your lovey-dovey acts please....

hope that it will be settled in near due time.
confusing period. status quo. i do not like that feeling at all.

2009-04-12T17:30:00.004+08:00

lunching at vivo carnivore and steamboat dinner at marina barrage with le familia.

marina barrage? so overated. it is just a bloody reservior with 10000 times more people walking around as compared to macritchie or seletar. interesting singaporeans. getting so fascinated with WATER.

the tampanies roadshow on saturday is torturous. reached at 11am and realised that it only starts at 2pm. what the fuck?! headed over to starbucks with cindy where we slacked.... for 2 consecutive days i ordered caramel frapp WITHOUT WHIPPED CREAM but guess what? they still gave me bloody whipped cream. miss tong and catherine came over to meet me for lunch after their retail therapy. man. tampanies is one freaking crowded place. hahaha.

chamber at night with miss tong, catherine and amy. she finally gets to eat her satay. haha. but seriously, the satay at boat quay sucks.

2009-04-10T21:52:00.002+08:00

met miss tong for dinner at marina sq. sakae sushi kinda went from bad to worst to.....pathetically shitty? ok ok ok. i know im over exaggerating, but seriously. they really got to REFLECT ON THE STANDARD OF THEIR FOOD!! tsk tsk tsk tsk. headed over to spinelli after that for some drinks and chats before she needs to go off....

by the way, wong li lin is one major big time stuck-up biatchh! hahaha... sasha-ing into our bank with her uber huge ass shades and that SPG american accent going....

" hmmmm...i just don't understand why blah blah blah blah...... " *repeated 1 million times* ok. ok. exaggerating again.. but she kept repeating and repeating...

i just felt like screaming into those squirting eyes of hers... " BECAUSE.......spelled as B..E..C..A..U..S..E.............YOU.......spelled as Y...O...U.............ARE....spelled as A...R...E.......DUMBBBBB!!!!!!!!

Brian goes... " NOT CHIO WHAT! "

Fydia goes... " BOOBS SO SMALL! "

Hahahahahahahahaaaaaa....... by the way, awwww.... NVM. hahaha....

met miss tong yesterday after work. have to wait for her till like 8+ which so so so...FORTUNATELY??? i met mr Mufu. hahaha... he wanted me to join him at Balaclava. no thank you sir. :) miss tong and i had dinner at teppanyaki. :) lq came over soon after. we headed to boat quay for some drinks. hmmmmm....hmmmmm......angry. hahaha....

2009-04-04T20:23:00.004+08:00

caught this show with miss tong after work. i think half the time miss tong is covering her face. hahahahaha!

anyway, it is the new quarter. u jin will be 200% focused in his work. i think i have grown up a fair bit ever since i've started working. the responsibility, the hunger for success, the determination to succeed. i don't think i have "these" when i was still a student.

BUT THEN! I DON'T WANNA GROW OLD AND WRINKLY! HAHAHAHAHAAAA!!

renting's bday at chinaone on friday. HAPPY BELATED BDAY.

i like being with u

i like talking to u

i like looking at u

i like seeing u laugh

i like seeing u smile

i like the way u walk

like the way u talk

like the way u say u are hungry

like everything bout u

im thankful. very thankful that i got to know u.

2009-03-28T05:19:00.005+08:00

zirca with miss tong, elsie, renting and catherine. dun really like the music though. but no complains, iam with a bunch of ladies. hahaha.....concidence. met christina there. :) barely 2 hours of sleep later and here iam again, at my beloved branch. tell me if this sucks big time. hahaha. fairmount indoor party with my collegues after work. hmmmmmm...after my sleep i mean. hahaha. they prepared everything while i just went to enjoy everything. hahaaa..

the both chris-es.

dun be fooled. haha. this is merely 1/4 of what we drank!

so proud of what they did.

have to help them take this pic again and again and again...hahaha....

crazily, brian and i wore the cutesy fairmount bathroom slippers, and went to get more booze....booze...booze....

salesgirl selling alcohol " hi, try not to drink so much, it is bad for health. "

hmmmmm...hahahaha.....

met miss tong on tuesday for dinner and movies after work. "coming soon" hmmmmm.....NOT SCARY AT ALL LAH...... its just chaba...chaba...chaba...chaba...chaba...chaba...chaba...chaba...chaba...chaba...chaba...chaba...chaba...chaba...chaba...chaba...

chaba...chaba...chaba...chaba...chaba...chaba...chaba...chaba...chaba...chaba...chaba...chaba...

chaba...chaba...chaba...chaba...chaba...chaba...chaba...chaba...chaba...chaba...blahhhh....hahahaha.....

headed over to esplanade where we just kind of sat beside the river and chatted. =)

anyway, george's bday at st james mono. haha.. miss tong accompanyed me. phew. at least someone to entertain me. lol..hahahahaaaa.

ok...st james yet again...hovering between powerhouse and boiler. well, the music at powerhouse is making me sick and thank god we shifted to boiler after that. not just because of the music but most importantly, a brief moment of........ :) and yes......... gotta say bye bye danny. haha.

amy took this pic and said that this is such a nice picture because my face is covered! hahaha...yeahh...

2009-03-15T15:55:00.002+08:00

been falling sick very often this year. is it because of work? or is it the booze? hmmm.. time to reflect.
wala-ing with amy, christina and xiuling after work. work has been a bitch as usual. the tension, the backstabbings has all been so evident. Holland Village. hahaha. you just have to learn to put on a bloody false front at times, no matter how much you dread it. this is so factually important. to protect yourself from evil-doers.....
met up with the guys at my neighbourhood soon after for more booze. and i really meant more booze which ultimately kept me away from work and in the comfy of my bed for 2 days. hahahaha.
obar-ing with miss tong, janel, justin, cheryl and "sorry-i-forgot-the-names-of-the-rest". a brief one. but what's important is the company u had. :) miss tong and i met up with gin at west coast for supper after that.

saturday was nice. :) minus some minor hiccups.

i knew more,
understand more,
and probably likes more.

hahaha.

2009-03-08T10:46:00.003+08:00

“Marley and Me”? it is such a tear jerker! not to say i was crying away. hahaha. no..no..no...

i think someone might be holding back her tears though. hahaha. yes..yes..yes....miss tong..miss tong...hahahaha.

it is a heartwarming show and Marley is so adorable despite being such a terror. great show to end the evening with, I’d say. so if you’re a dog lover and want to catch the movie, REMEMBER YOUR TISSUE PAPERS!
the show reminded me of michael. i should cherish all the time I have with him.

to me, he’s part of my world;

but to him, im the world.

friday chill-outs at boat quay with miss tong, sam, mingwei, gin and cy. well...sam left early with *i-forgot-her-name* ya..ya...understandable. hahaha.. miss tong left soon after for her friend's bday party. sigh. haha. nvm. left with the dudes, killkennys and ciggies. the waitress kept pressing my forhead and looking into my eyes...

*china accent* " NI YOU DAI YING XING YAN JING SHI MA?? "

duhh! yes..yes..yes...f**king obvious right?!

saturday dblo-ing with miss tong, elsie, catherine and sam. been 2 years since i've been to that place. the last time was a bad memory. :)

met cy at robertson with this caucasian girl and pleasantly surprised, met wilson in dblo. been so long since we have met. knew him and his sister for freaking 22years and counting.

felt bad seeing miss tong puked. :(

2009-03-01T22:32:00.002+08:00

chamber plus fashionbar-ing with claudia. boat quay, clarke quay and back to boat quay. hahaha. and i dun really like vodka cranberry. boooo.

the roadshow today is just like a mini batch gathering for me. i like. =)

daniel, adrian, xiuling, sirong and david are there. i like. =)

lotsa goofing around. as usual, adrian did the unthinkable. he walked out of civic plaza's main entrance, stopped and took off his top and change. all of us was like.

WHAT THE F**KING GOD IS HE DOING?!?! HAHAHAAAAA.....

2009-02-28T22:38:00.002+08:00

mundane life of a banker. it is not as prestigious as what everyone perceived it to be. no no no no....
more than half a year since the day i've signed on the dotted line and sold my carefree soul away to something called the "working environment". dillusional. what would i be expecting? is working really less stressful?? like how we used to bitch around when we were mugging for the exams.
it has indeed been a roller coaster ride for me. used to have so many plans for the future but i guess some of the plans have sort of deviated due to unforseen circumstances. ritz carlton?? hahaha........
work's a pain in the ass when it stretches to 9pm every single day. that's the typical life of a banker. i should have gotten used to the fact but probably i just need a channel to vent out all the pent-up fustrations. this is especially important for guys and girls who does not have that special someone to share sweet-nothings with. CHUTE IT ALL OUT HERE! sometimes, you would just momentarily stare blankly. it feels so surreal.

2009-02-24T23:46:00.003+08:00

wealth updates at scotts by the people from schroders. yes yes yes yes......schroders asia bond fund. yes yes yes yes....

met up with miss tong at tampanies after my ardous night in branch. hahaha. ate. chatted. =)

back to selegie tomorrow yet again. my hat-trick. bloody sucks. not to mention roadshow at civic plaza on sunday. YET AGAIN. fucked.

2009-02-22T22:17:00.002+08:00

so bloody tired! coupled with the fact that there's a roadshow on weekends at civic plaza? FUCK. hahahaha.

met up with miss tong at chamber before we headed over to loof. my favourite chill-out place during our trainings at odean. memories. everyone left early though and thus back to chamber yet again. apologies to miss tong for the marks on her legs. i didnt mean it. :)

chill out at white bar with miss tong and sam. i've been boat-quaying so so so often recently. haha.

Tomorrow's a monday! yayy! so damn happy. crazy.

2009-02-16T23:40:00.002+08:00

"I was born under unusual circumstances."

And so begins "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button," adapted from the 1920s story by F. Scott Fitzgerald about a man who is born in his eighties and ages backwards. A man, like any of us, who is unable to stop time. We follow his story set in New Orleans from the end of World War I in 1918, into the 21st century, following his journey that is as unusual as any man's life can be - a grand tale of a not-so-ordinary man and the people and places he discovers along the way, the loves he finds, the joys of life and the sadness of death, and what lasts beyond time.

caught this film with claudia at cineleisure.

u jin gives it a 4/5. =)

2009-02-15T04:18:00.003+08:00

work's getting extremely pressurizing recently. the targets needed to achieve. PURE MADNESS. contemplating. seriously. a 13hr/day job isnt exactly comforting.

constant source of de-stressing recently has been boat quay, martell and beer. hiding behind the farcade of the everyday's crapshit while putting on a brave or i would say false front. im really so tired of all these.

met up with claudia, gin, ben, janel, justin and olivia at boat quay on one of the weekdays. the rest left soon after leaving me and claudia alone at shebangs. out of nowhere, this crazy bitch came and find trouble with me. tore my shirt and yes. for once i really felt like slapping a girl.

bali house with claudia on friday. yes. yes. and by the way Miss Tong, u really look perfectly fine in your glasses. :) really. i was just kidding all along. so......wear it more often! haha.

Happy belated Valentine's Day to all singles out there.

Couples? screw u guys! hahaha.

2009-02-11T00:55:00.002+08:00

+friday+
chamber at boat quay with claudia, catherine, jessie, amy, kaeyln, elsie, april, alex, sam and rachel. i had fun. =) at least dear amy is not dead drunk this time round. haha.

+saturday+
met up with claudia to celebrate thapusiam? how do i spell it? haha. whatever. no no no... went to catch underworld. hmmmm.... pretty alright show. not exactly that good as compared to the previous sequels. headed over to bali house after our midnight show. chat..chatted..chatted-ed. hahahaha....

+sunday+
met up with sirong and sam at yew tee....wth.. YEW TEE. we can still drink, drank and drankkk...hahahaa....the "singles" club.

yes yes yes..i know that my entries nowadays doesnt really seem to have a flow. iam busy. fucking busy.

2009-02-02T21:59:00.003+08:00

Penang 2009 *loves*

2009-01-31T18:21:00.002+08:00

have not been diligently updating my blog. apologies. haha. as it seems to be. the financial sect is a gloomy grimly place to be right now which unfortunately to say, iam in it. those aside. HAPPY LUNAR CHINESE NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE. went for a short trip to Malaysia. updates and pics would be up soon. stay tune. hahaha.

martell and beer night at chamber with amy, claudia, sam, elsie, april, mingwei, ' iam-sorrie-i-forgot-the names-of-the-rest ' had fun. :) i love my frens. :) hahaha..

branch lou hei at east coast. haha. what the fuck. so fucking far. me, christina, amy and xiuling wanna go cycle after that but thanks to the fucking weather. haha.

2009-01-14T20:30:00.003+08:00

roadshows on saturday and sunday. there goes my weekends. major turnoff.

the stress is seriously accumulating as the days goes by. major turnoff x 2.

targets? major turnoff x 3.

2009-01-11T18:38:00.002+08:00

the new scorecard meeting at SMU. i must say the new quarter is gonna be a whole lot crappier. God bless all of us. Sokudo-ing with daniel, adrian, marcus, david, andy, melanie, liting, jennifer, xiuling and angela after that. love their company. it is with them that you can really forgo all the politics and backstabbings.
everyday is pretty much mundance. work, work and more work. the usual smoking khakis of me, brian, christina, joseph and rachel would bitch and bitch about how fuck'ed up everything is. haha! yeah....we do have the liberty to whineeee. i dun care.
CNY is approaching in 2 weeks time. Heading off to Msia for a short holiday. I need to unwind. ciao.

2009-01-04T11:35:00.002+08:00

went to the land of jbians with sam, klyse, mingwei and ann.

we eat.........and eat......AND REALLY EAT!

the sight of how we tempt ann to smoke after she made a 2009 resolution to quit smoking is PRICELESS! hahaha.

2009-01-01T13:50:00.002+08:00

martell at bali house for 3 consecutive days. =)

sam, klyse, mw, ann, claudia, lq, sirong and kerine. thanks everyone for the fun and laughter. =) i had fun!

happy 2009 everyone!

2008-12-28T11:37:00.002+08:00

the post christmas and pre new year " dun-feel-like-working " syndrome is seriously infecting everyone. hahaha.

embracing 2009 with a linger of doubt and fear. what to expect? what to overcome? what to look forward to? the uncertainty hovering around everyone in the financial sector spells further doom, bloom and gloom. on a personal level, there is so much i would like to achieve in 2009. more shirts, pants, tees, hoodies, shoes, sneakers, truckers, belts, chains, watches...da..da..da..da....hahaha...BULLS. hush. hush. shall disclose them in the near future.

2008 has been a pretty topsy turvy year. the year i graduated, the year she said goodbye, the year i got my job, coupled with those smaller flactuations here and there. major major regrets for 2008? yes. i never knew that would ever happen to us. NEVER in my mind. guess i was too naive. probably iam just not good enough, not caring enough, not understanding enough or just simply not the right one to spend the rest of her life with her. iam still very much in love with her but life's a bitch at times. strangers are what we seemed to be now. or maybe it'll be this way forever.

anyways, a blessed 2009 everyone.

2008-12-21T00:44:00.003+08:00

lq and i concluded that getting dinner space in Takashimaya at 7.30pm would be a considerably feat. amy, sam, lq and me literally walked from crystal jade dumplings to crystal jade korea to crystal jade palace to KFC to Mac to Sanur to MOS to Ajisen to etc...etc...etc...etc..... without fail, u'll see a whole fucking queue of hungry dinner fanatics. finally settled for this japanese place which the food is pretty hmmmmm......nvm.

bloody hell. so many temptations! i don't mean "that" kinda. hahaha. so many things that i want to buy!! shit! shirts...tees...bags...shoes...watches...arghhhh!

but anyways, after the frenzied thoughts, we headed down to bali house soon after. gin, cheryl, klyse, kenneth and gx came over later. i had fun. =) though working on saturdays can be such a fucked fucked fucked thing, but screw it. we still hanged out till 4am. zombified us the next day though. hahahaaa...

went to nurul's wedding after work. congrats sister! happy for ya!

taxi-ing back home always never fail to make me have a 2nd look into phoenix road. familiar. so so familiar yet distant.

when u jin gets bored at work.

2008-12-14T11:41:00.007+08:00

standard chartered bank dinner and dance.

met up with sam, doreen, michelle and jeffery at a pub near archipelago after my dnd. martell, beer, martell, beer, martell, beer. drink drank drunk.

2008-12-09T00:13:00.002+08:00

u jin should be undergoing operation " alcohol-reducing " soon. real soon.

smoking = 3x cancer prone

smoking & drinking = FUCKING 24x cancer prone

SHIT.

everything in a nutshell. in accordance with date but i dun exactly remember the dates. hahahahaaa....

to zoofis tapas bar after work with sam. sabrina's working there. so..........BUT! ur bloody chicken wings are way too spicy! hahahaa. interesting gents though. i guess practically everyone can see u pee whenever someone walks past. *wink* kinky. go check out their toilets. or rather just the guy's one. left for bali house soon after. met up with lq and sirong there. the usuals. bitching around. i like. :)

to outram for dinner with my boys. sam, lq, mw, gin. with us around, i GUARANTEE 200% madness. 300% fun and 400% rowdyness! best pals to hang out with! i like. :)
21 fucking bottles of beer for the night. alright. 600% madness instead. hahaa. amy and eva came down later to join us.

dinner with sei, jane, jielun, ck and ah bao at keat hong.

standard chartered bank roadshow at expo. SHAGGED but having amy, eva, billy, agnes, joseph and david smoothens everything out. :) just so amazing how singaporeans never fail to impress me. swatting and dodging us like mosquitos. oh come on. have the basic courtesy to smile and say no thank you. wtfh is wrong with you people. to mel's place bar and bistro at night with sam, amy and eva. beer, wedges, wings and pizzas. i like. :) mel's place resembles villa bali. chilled out with that lil' thinge of romance. hahaa. to sunshine place for beer and timsum after that. madness. haaaaa...

lunching with le familia at MS. bought a limited edition DOPE trucker. i like. :) round up with 3 sessions of mj with jielun, wk and migo. fucking tired. literally fell asleep. zzzzz....

2008-11-30T11:40:00.002+08:00

i hate this week.

smoking fine = $200

losing my 1mth old HTC diamond = $528

losing money in mahjong = $70

28th Nov 2008 = emo-ing day.

i summed up this week as, PRETTY FUCKED-UP.

remisicing the 2006 locked msgs in my motorola V3.

2008-11-28T00:17:00.001+08:00

28th Nov 2005 ~ 28th Nov 2008

it has been 3 years. or rather, it could have been the 3rd year.

2008-11-23T18:44:00.001+08:00

2008-11-16T09:04:00.002+08:00

work's been a bitch at times. apart from the long hours and fucking unreasonable customers. I MEAN REALLY FUCKING UNREASONABLE. you got to face Mr "MAH-LAI" every single fucking day. woooooooooo... how bloody disgusting.

you kinda really fully understand the whole gist of why why why throughout the years, you had oldies in the working environment telling u " dude! school life is still the best! enjoy while you can. " which u would cringe and go WTF! stop being sacarstic just because you dun have to go thru exams again!

BUT NOW....

I SO FUCKING AGREE!

10 times greater the stress level, 10 times longer the hours ain't exactly what i thought it would be. hahahahahaaaa...

anyway....

been drinking pretty much these days. erdinger/killkenny night with dera at balihouse, wala wala booze night with the boss and colleagues and 2 days ago....booze cum graveyard night at balihouse with dera, her friend and sam.

u jin gotta adopt a healthier lifestyle! haha.

HAPPY BELATED BDAY TO MY SIS!

2008-11-06T01:04:00.001+08:00

2008-11-02T14:13:00.002+08:00

halloween was fun! with all the party poppers, fizzlers and sprays. the rest are going to timbre which i anticipated would be fucking crowded. skipped that and headed off to bali house with sirong, kerine and sam since...well, i booked a table. the regulars are still there and boss is dressed in -i dun know what- haha. kept on brandishing a chopper in front of us. i think he is fucking high or something. he whispered into my ears...something to do with hard, sex, dance. lol. too explicit to actually say that out. so oh well. hahaha.. enough said.

gina was decked in a nun costume with the exception of a short skirt and fishnet stockings. hallejulah! god bless you! haha... u have sinned. BUT. sweet of her to keep asking me if i had drank too much and getting me warm water. credits. credits. credits. shall tell boss what an superbly, exceptionally, wonderfully, sweet waitress you are. hahahaaaa.

music's good. ambience's good, THE COMPANY'S good, food's good, the alcohol's good!!!

we drink, drank, but only kerine was drunk. hahaha.

our heineken barrel, our bloody marys, our tequilas, our graveyards....PRICELESS.

2008-10-27T12:01:00.002+08:00

bbq at gab's
pinnacle @ 16

2008-10-25T12:45:00.004+08:00

been a fucking fucking hectic past 2 weeks. kudos to 0809 that has endured the entire shit phase. u jin salutes everyone for job well done. =)

the torturous late nights back home, the 9pm dinner at shokudo, va va vroom cafe, the beer drinking at S Club, Loof and Wala Walas, the bonds...FXssss....UTssss.....ELNsssss....PCIssss...etc..etc..the carsons' the darwins', the presentation infront of roger *by the way is an investment analyst* and the rest of the panel of I-KNOW-EVERYTHING people will be duely remembered. =)

eileen, gabriel and brian. thanks for everything and everything. the knowledge, patience and life experiences will be so so valuable. appreciated 110%.

iam darn sure iam so gonna miss odean. but most importantly, 0809.

who cares about the lee wen sis', magdelenes' or christines'. 0809 still rocks to the max! haha.

dinner at angus with gabriel. marcus, daniel, andy, mel and liting.

me and jing.

the dudes.

Standard Chartered Bank - aloha cum sports wear cum outserve with passion

2008-10-11T09:48:00.002+08:00

to forget you. that is the most impossible thing to do.to forget is just an interpretation. an immeasurable love’s memories can never be wiped off. time doesn’t devour memories: it just slowly, painfully converts it into fragments of a dream. occasionally, something will spark the wrath of the dream, and the dream will alter into a memory again. to forget you, is not to remember you. every single detail in life reflects you. every ntuc and cold storage I see, every cokelight I drink, every shirt I wear. but to forget you, what I have to do is not to remember you. not to remember that we grocery shopped like married couples in that cold storage, not to remember that we once shared that cokelight, not to remember that you bought me that shirt. for now, sinking into a memory of one of the touches you stroked on me, I cannot remember the physical touch, but I can remember the delicacy of it. have I forgotten you? when I tried to forget you, I had just thought of you again. as my mind revolves with your image, again and again?

everything on the table seemed to contain fragments of our memories together. the 2 bus ticket folded hearts you gave me on those very rare occasions when we took a bus, the mickey and minnie soft toy that we each had at marina south, the first neoprint we took at 2005.

we were close to three years into our relationship then. there was no sign of any loss in love, and our relationship was as steady as a rock. friends around me would always ask when are we getting married. I just smiled through their comments, although I knew their remarks contained a certain tingle of truth. i thought we are the finished article. i thought.

2008-10-05T12:52:00.000+08:00

hahahahahaaa......

2008-10-03T21:33:00.002+08:00

yet another fucking hectic week. was at MAS one of the days where i stupidly get off at cityhall where it is supposed to be at tanjong pagar. AND I BLOODY KNEW THE PLACE. but i just dunno why i alighted there. haha. nvm. and so dropped by at RBS which was sam's new working place. smells A-T-A-S. haha. was greeted by this customer service manager and she hounded sam for not introducing us. hahaha. yes. yes. yes. kate. kate. kate.

this bugger has been consistently blackmailing me with my drunken shots which he gleefully took that fateful day. hahahaa. neverrr everrrr get drunk again! you got to bear the painful consequences! hahahaa. hmmm...sulian tan-wijaya, may wan, choy wan and even michelle yeoh was at the forbidden mansion party. but i did not even see any of them. hmmmm...too drunk? hahahaa.

anyway, overheard this pretty amusing conversation between a 14yr old girl i suppose. *holding a sec 2 geography text* and a 14yr old boy i suppose?

the way the english language was quoted is purely NOT ME. MIND YOU.
boy " i whacked that guy till he's pi on the floor lor! then i kicked his head! "

girl " *impressed* wahh. then that guy how?? wahhh...u sibeh fierce lor. "

boy " ar boh den! knn...i whack sure win one lor. "

hahahaha!
HAHAHAHAHAAAHAAA!
WUAHAHAHAHAAAHAAAAAAA.....!!!

this pudgy pimply short piece of fucktard. he really irks me. and i have this fucking uncanny bad habit of finding trouble with fucktards. hahaa.

i think i could easily kick this fucktard's ass. EASILY. FUCKING EASILY.

on an intellectual note. :)
phew. the 2nd attempt of bail out by the US was a success. hopefully this would simmer the see-sawing stock market for now.

u jin's so drained and tired and he falls asleep at 11pm. hahahaa.

2008-09-28T11:02:00.003+08:00

Singapore F1as usual, the F1 fever has gotten onto me as well. the engine roaring, rubber burning never felt so bloody good. was at Jill Lowe International @ Raffles Hotel on friday where all these madness begins. Kimi Raikkonen came down to purvis street. haha. imagine the big commotion he has created. anyway, Felipe Massa has grabbed the pole position for the sunday race. YES! Mr Lewis Hamilton. SCREW U. i just have something against this brit guy. arrogant, loud-mouthed, brash. or UGLY? hahahaha.

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VIP lounge @ Indonchine

yes. it was very ATAS and it felt very very good. the roving eyes of the rest of the crowd seated OUTSIDE the VIP area was priceless. hahahaa. alcohol galore. the vodkas, johnny walkers, moet, cordon bleu, jack daniels, jim beams, chivals blah. blah. blah. blah.. haha. was totally on the house for VIPs. we drink, drank and drunk. it was hell lotsa fun. hahaha. the rest of it after that was seriously a big big blur.

i puked like so many fucking times.

2008-09-25T00:08:00.002+08:00

so drained and tired.

2008-09-21T00:01:00.003+08:00

everything seems to flow back in after the dream.

the black silk bed.the blue curtains.the green round table.the squeaky grey chair.the ntuc grocery shoppings.the calamari rings.the csi.the suomi.

everything.everything.everything.everything and everything else.

2008-09-20T10:43:00.002+08:00

.friday.
hog's breath at chijmes after work

adrian

daniel

marcus

andy

david

liting

xiuling

jing

angela

jennifer

evann

sirong

was present.

so bloody busy and tired every single day. sigh.

i dreamt of ryps yesterday night. seems so surreal.

2008-09-13T04:25:00.002+08:00

a week of work ended yet again. weekends never seem so so precious to me before. i think i kind of appreciate the fridays, saturdays and sundays more these days. which means...........

u'll tend to FULLY UTILISE IT. =)

met up with jing and her friends at winebar. they are a bunch people from JP Morgan, Monetary Authority of Singapore, wine investments..etc. intellectual people. i like. =) one of jing's friend happen to be sam's friend. small world. iam sorry. remembering names was never my forte.

zouk is just like a second home where everywhere u go, u'll bound to bump into friends. walked towards the entrance, i saw peggy and sinny. turned around, i saw daniel and we goofed around. sat down and chatted with karelyn where cassandra and sabrina came to my table. i was pretty shocked. i dun know. pleasantly shocked? someone so so familiar and related to me in a way. chatted for a while. been quite a while. how am i?? not good. really.

ended it all with madness suppering at newton with sam.

2008-09-11T01:51:00.002+08:00

life of a shagged working adultmet up with the guys in town last friday. was basically doing some catching up over coffee after work. sam joined later. nurul was supposed to join us but tsk tsk tsk. this little maxim girl wanted me to get her the gucci perfume. haha! ya..ya..ya..ya. do u wanna settle for like some bodyshop scent instead? but! i still love this chirpy lady. muahaha. so was actually contemplating between bali house and sunshine and well, sunshine it shall be. yvonne came down cos she's like staying so freaking near. and we all smoked, suppered and chatted till bloody 6am. haha. this girl is gonna go tattoo her back. madness.

tuesday
starbucks at cathay after work with daniel. was actually supposed to do some read ups with him but ultimately, it goes down to smoking, boobs, ankles, and armpits. hahahahaaa! wanted to do dinner at aston's but we settled for bombers in the end.

thankfully there's vernessa who kept me company thru the sms-es whenever iam fucking bored at work. and whoever needs bust enhancement or firming, or u know of anyone who needs that, tell me. hahahahaaaa.. nessa's a beauty consultant at raffles. hahahaaa..

2008-09-02T23:19:00.003+08:00

last minute meet up with trix and her friends at halo bar. ugliness! smeared looks better now. :(

gonna sleep at 11.22pm! working tomorrow. :)

2008-09-01T15:15:00.002+08:00

was at vivo city on friday, saturday and sunday.

haha. it is pretty amazing how friends could approach me saying " oh..u are now in blah blah blah bank right? "

o.O woah.... how the hell do u know..... hmmmm...

lunching at thomson with le familia.

2008-08-30T20:45:00.003+08:00

convocation. convocation.

bloody long event. makes me so damn sleepy.

pics pics will be up soon!

went to st james at night. knew many new ppl like tiffany, nurul, emily, sonia, valerie, timothy, winston....i forgot the rest. it was fun. lotsa madness. everyone was high, drunk, rowdy and wasted. ESPECIALLY SAM. haha.

nurul was going " u jin! u jin! are u from lasalle? come! drink! " hahaha...hmmmm...and when she get's all high, she'll go " CCB lah! " hahaha.
valerie? haha.. triple xxx dirty dancing. she kept laughing away telling me that sam is so bloody 'buay zhai' lol. winston's happily smoking away inside the club, not forgetting falling flat on the floor while trying to catch hold of a random girl jumping onto him. haha.

the kinda nonsense u'll never ever imagine from a group of professional bankers. hahaha.

anyway, sharlene, kelvin and anthony happen to be there too. oh ya! and my bro! raziz! he's the saxaphone player of the band. how time flies.....knew sharlene and raziz since i was 13yrs old.

2008-08-29T01:41:00.002+08:00

chill-out at halo bar with sam, klyse and terence.

starting work on the 3rd of sep. iam happy. =)

7 more hours to convocation. iam still wide awake. =(

2008-08-28T02:13:00.000+08:00

arrived at last....waited for a month.

tomorrow is my convocation.

2008-08-26T16:32:00.000+08:00

met up with estella while waiting for jl to finish work. suprised that dewey is still in VentureEra for like 7 yrs and counting. remembered the days when he tried to romped me and albert in. the raw, fresh-faced dewey who only had bananas, a airdryer, hair gel and GNC pills in his ultra huge nike duffer. the guy whom u can only see him in the school canteen, swimming pool and gym but just not in lectures.
well...now, he's a successful business manager driving a swanky bmw z4. iam happy and proud of u bro.

2008-08-24T16:04:00.000+08:00

my phone alarm buzzed at 1pm on a sunday afternoon. i dun remember setting alarms on weekends. took a look and recalled why i did set the alarm. it was done months ago because today marks the 1000th day since we got together. but it will never meant to be.

2008-08-24T14:07:00.000+08:00

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2008-08-20T19:44:00.000+08:00

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2008-08-18T03:08:00.000+08:00

friday.

had an sms from madeline at 3.30am.

" im alone at phuture. "

" huh? i thought u mentioned that u'll be going with ur friends? "

" yea.... they danced with some random guys and went off with them. "

woahhh. the SIA stewardess aint doing anything to help better their ALREADY fucked-up reputation huh. met up with her at 4.30am to hear her rant about her bitchy chief stewardess who will never open a pack of orange juice for fear of chipping her damn nails and her soon-to-breakup bf. she kept going " how? how? how? how? how? how? u know me for quite long le..iam such a boring person meh?" and i just replied " breakup. breakup. breakup. breakup. breakup. breakup. "

i mean do u seriously wanna hear me being honest about this whole situation or u just need someone to humour you and you dwelling in self-delusion? well, since he has been msging u how much he loves u. how much he misses u. how much he cant wait for u to be back in singapore... yada..yada...blah..blah.....but on the other hand, he doesnt feel like meeting u when u are back in singapore citing lame excuses like iam tired...i want a boys night out because i have not met them for quite some time, where apparently, u guys met up few days back...sms-es takes years to be replied to... enough said. there is something seriously wrong with this relationship. the reason that u are still holding on, is that u just dun wanna be the "bad guy" that initiates a break-up. or simply, walloping in self-delusion again..thinking no..no..no...there's nothing wrong in this relationship. maybe he's really tired...blah..blah..blah.... as we all know, love is blind and it really makes people think UN-straight.

madeline goes " arghhhhh! how? how? how? how to have mood to serve people later! " apparently, this girl have a flight to brisbane later in the evening.

" you take over me can?? i lend u my kebaya. "

haha...yeah...right....

anyway, been telling her that when it comes to a point in a relationship when you feel that the other party doesnt really have the enthusiam to meet, prefer hanging out with his friends, constantly taking godzillion years to reply an sms. BREAK-UP IS INEVITABLE.

got an sms from her at 8.30am " i broke off with him le "

iam pleasantly pleased for her. least the misery ends sooner rather than later.

Sunday.

lunch at marina mandarin peach blossoms with le familia.

they served wickedly tasty dimsums.

sis and bro-in-lawmy dad is forever camera shy

un-glam shot
mummy and her grand-daughter aka my niece

2008-08-16T02:23:00.000+08:00

from a friend.

" ok...hypothetically speaking...you have a girlfriend. and lets say your gf gets mad at you cos you still hang out with other girls, just you and that girl, the two of you going out. you are just friends with her. you dont kiss and hug. but is it right? is it right for you to go out with other girls like that when you're attached, even if you dont do couple stuff? for me, i just dont like it. >( "

well, on a guy's perspective, getting all freaked out and jealousy over ur gf hanging out with her male friend is pretty much a norm for all guys. lets all admit it guys. you may blabber non-stop saying nahhhh, she's a good buddy of mine or we have been friends for years. but hell no. the roving eyes does suffice when she happens to have an up-skirt, down-blouse or whatever shit that allow ur eyes "into" her clothes or getting ur hands on her. but we all know how guys can make the roving hands look all so innocent and pure. *only apply if ur girl buddy is hot* he may even be wanking off to ur pics every damn night and acting all so coyly the next day infront of you. yes. guys can be real chameleons.

back to topic...
at the start of a r/s, the girl would probably go "awww..he's so cute! he'll gets so jealously over some guys! he loves me so much! " but as the days, months or even years goes by, this is sadly not the case anymore. she'll most probably label you as a damn bloody jealously imbecile or an overly sensitive freak. i have to admit that it is a fine thin line between being jealous or being overly jealous which i have not fathom yet. but can't you sit back and think simple? why did he get so jealous?? because he doesnt love you? obviously no.
and of course, these definitely are restrictions which make sense and aren't silly like 'i don't want you to go out on Thursdays, just because i say so' or ' You can't eat green M&M's anymore, it really bothers me'. you are allowed to have friends of the opposite sex, well why not. maybe you even knew them before you knew me. fine. but is there ever a time where you can just hang out with that person by yourself when you're attached, and just say 'it's no big deal'? if you say nothing happened and nothing will ever happen, that's just a load of BS.

relationships, and i mean real relationships, not those secondary/poly/jc puppy loves where a guy asks a girl to 'go steady' or vice versa and it lasts all of 3 weeks (or less). when it gets serious and you've been with that person for a wickedly long time until you know all their flaws, major/minor, their personality traits, bad habits, all the little things that make up the person whom you're deeply in love with, maybe sometimes the thought of actually being with that person forever slips in occasionally. and you wonder if that person wants the same thing you do. i don't mean silly, childish ramblings of so-called infinite love, like 'awww i love you so much and i wanna be with you forever!' i mean real commitment. i'm not afraid to say the word: marriage. the kind of commitment and seriousness that requires you to actually sit down and discuss it, at least for a certain period of time. not to say that a proposal has to be made there and then or a diamond ring to pop out of nowhere, just a simple talk where you ask your partner, have you ever thought of the future, of this relationship?

love actually does hurt, both physically and emotionally. physically as in the bitter tears you shed for someone whom you thought she'll love u through the end of time, the countless promises, swears and assurances. but when you really think about it, you start to question whether it really was 'true love' and whether promises does prove anything but just a pact of lovey dovey sweet nothings that is a normality that a couple has to say to each other on a regular basis? it makes me wonder that what if another girl in future said " u jin.. i will love you forever and ever. i swear " hmmmmmmmmmmm..... iam afraid i would go " fuck you. quit the BS. who's gonna promise forever? " haha.
emotional pain. well there's too much stuff that goes into that and quite frankly iam too lazy to mesh out the details of that. i do not know when or would i ever be able to find a girl that i would be so utterly comfortable with like iam with her...used to be. that i could feel so at ease bathing in front of her, peeing in front of her, messed-up hair with my hairband on, my unruly unshaved look, my specs on, the call from her at 3am to ask me over to accompany her...i'll literally fly over, the morning till evening ikea shoppings, the overnight paintings....etc..etc..etc......have she cleared her entire top shelf? have she deleted all the overseas pics?
it ended so abruptly. too abruptly for me to handle.

2008-08-14T16:08:00.000+08:00

madeline was telling me all these weird abbreviations of the flight routes. ok. i forgot most of it. madeline's flying, xiangning's flying, sharon's flying, claudia's flying, rachel's flying...blah blah blah...
it gets all so rivetting when all of them are online at the same time.

madeline: " yo! im in jakarta now! "
xiangning: " haha! beijing damn happening lah. "
sharon: " damn sian can. this is my 6th time to korea...think i'll slack in the room "
claudia: " haha! new york! new york! here i come! "
rachel: " jin ah...what do u want from greece? "

greece? haha.... ermmm....nvm.

alright. back to my convo with madeline. heard from her that there is a pet care centre near our area. and yes. i could practically walk there with michael and owen. this is such good news for the west-side peeps.

the Club4Paws premises on Stagmont Ring Road has a pet groomer, cafe and playground.
but what gets most tails wagging is the 10m-long swimming pool that is up to 1m deep.
after a morning of long walks and ball games, the dogs get to cool down in the pool in the afternoon.

Club4Paws is the second pet care centre in singapore to have a swimming pool. the first was Mutts & Mittens in Pasir Ris. emphasis is placed on socialising. all dogs, big and small and regardless of age or breed, play together. those who want to watch their dogs having fun, or even have meals with them, can hang out at a cafe on the premises.My Dog Ate It, the dog-and-human-friendly cafe. treat your dog to meatballs or dory fish while you tuck into asian-western cuisine in an alfresco setting.
Club4Paws, which opened three months ago, has more than 165 members with access to its facilities. 8 to 10 dogs are sent for day care on busy days like fridays, saturdays and sundays. the daily fee is $28 for small dogs and up to $45 for bigger dogs.

met up with sam where we headed over to broadway to collect our regalia.

2008-08-10T08:38:00.000+08:00

met up with gin and cheryl for dinner at teban. headed over to sunrise tavern to meet up with sam and klyse after that for the usuals. the couples couples. sigh.

the chats, the tauts, the booze, the ciggies, the racist jokes and the porn jokes.

lq bunked over cos he's simply too wasted. and he is damn bloody rowdy. damned.

who took this with my phone? i have no bloody idea. the gucci wallet, the booze and the chips. heavenly.

u jin lost weight. appetite's been horribly bad for quite some time. i do miss her soba, pasta and everything else. i wonder if i would ever get to see muff, snowii, longan and lychee again. sleeping at 9am and waking up at 3pm becomes a daily ritual. felt hungry but once i started eating, im full and sick of the food by the 3rd morsel. am i gonna die soon? haha.

im glad to have this bunch of buds whom i know would accompany me through my rough patch. i deeply appreciate everything they had done for me. big huggies. she wont be there to share my graduation with me. it hurts.

2008-08-09T16:16:00.000+08:00

booze galore night at bali house again. so falling in love with this new found tavern. a great chill out place playing to mtv current hits.
sam, 'forgot-her-name' girl, lq and me was fucking rowdy, smashed and high. hahaha. but it was hell lotsa fun.

2008-08-07T02:26:00.000+08:00

hopefully my interview went through successfully. i would love to have that job. i just want to focus on work right now. parents are away overseas. its time to party and hovoc from dusk till dawn. smashed, banged and crashed'. when her msn pops up, i have so much to talk to her but i dun think she would want to.

22 more days to convocation. had mixed feelings bout' school. sem 1 was where bliss all begins and right now. ended. flips over another chapter of my life. but it'll be bookmarked forever.

2008-08-05T03:47:00.000+08:00

everything seems so rosy and perfect. too perfect to be true? the deep, strong foundations which i used to think it was could still crumple and fall by mere minutes and seconds over callous computer screens. cold hard facts.. do i still believe in promises?? i've learned to become so much more guarded now. distrust would probably linger throughout regardless of anything. probably a good way to not hurt myself ever again.

2008-08-03T21:03:00.000+08:00

the memories for the past 32 months whizzed past and ended just like what it has happened to me before, thru the medium of an msn. simple, clean-cut, ruthless. it seems all so familiar again. the promise of eternity, the gothic weddings, the sleepovers, i had so much trust..so so much trust and belief in our future....facade of dillusions now. empty promises and sweet nothings hurts the heart. we have become just a standstop phase in each of our individual lives. im tired.. im sure i wont love another girl as much again.. im sure i wont have the same level of comfortablity with another girl again.. life's a bitch i supposed. here comes convocation next. doesnt matter anymore.

the close ones has been accompanying me. thanks.
angie's bday at boozer room, cindy's martell session at s club, sam, klyse, gin, cheryl and liquan's bar barrels at bali house. smashed. but it felt good.